"FAMILY...is a little world created by LOVE"

Monday, January 19, 2009

Emotional Roller Coaster

The past 24 hours have been an emotional roller coaster for me and I'm not sure why at all. I haven't had one of these hormonal spells in about two weeks now. I wonder what truly brings them on? I think maybe its a growth spurt for the baby and so my hormones sky rocket and thats how my body deals with it. I don't know, but I do know while watching Desperate Housewives lastnight during a commercial I looked down to my lap for a minute and my husband, sitting beside me, said whats wrong and from there the waterfalls started flowing! I just shrugged my shoulders and said I dunno. He then said lay your head in my lap and as I sobbed more he just rubbed on my back and we continued watching the show. I think my tears were triggered by my unsatisfied belly! I just havent been able to satisfy my craving for some real nutrients! And, I think I was just finally fed up and frustrated! This morning that feeling of crying was still there when I woke up. Why? I have absolutely no clue! James asked me what was wrong, again! And, I was able to shake my head reassuring him it was nothing and held back the tears until I dropped him off at work but then he reached over for his hug and kiss goodbye, and the crying began again, LOL. It's so silly too me, even now, when I'm still feeling blue.

Anyway, hopefully my day gets better. I just feel like laying down and taking a looong nap! And, I can look forward to my next doctors appointment this Friday to go over my blood test results. It's not exactly one of the more exciting doctors visits to come, but it gets me out of work early on a Friday, and also its just one step closer to finally getting to hear a heartbeat and see our baby for the first time in a couple more weeks! I am now eight weeks along and the days are starting to go faster, but until I get that first ultrasound, it will truly feel like an eternity!


kristinkfitness said...

Aww, I hope you feel better!! Desperate Housewives was sad last night anyway, so that probably didn't help! =) It made me cry!